Friday, March 27, 2009
♥ Dilemma...exhausted...><
dilemma keep happen in my life...every decisions that made by me...feel like incorrect...
afraid of wrong decisions which could bring impact to others...
because of all this dilemma...i rather escape from the real world...avoid from making decisions...
since when i become so timid? i'm just dont want have any arguement in my life...i feel tire to see people argue with each other...
i keep think and think...try to fgure it out why people in this world will become like that...what kind of decision which can get a balance between people and people?...a balance which can avoid arguement and have a happy ending...tolerance this word appeared in my mind...in some circumstances tolerance need to be used...whoo...tire...=.=...growing older and older...naives cannot happen in my age now...now i know that ''mask'' is important to human...so that people dont know what your are planning...that's horrible...but i believe that some people still using their ''true appearance or attitude'' instead of putting a mask...
tiring...grandma admitted to hospital again...mum stay at hospital to take car of her...
in other words, i need to responsible to my brother and take care him...that's stress man...~~...
need to stop here...HOUSE WORK...=.=...realise that my mum is good in doing house work...U R THE BEST...^^
afraid of wrong decisions which could bring impact to others...
because of all this dilemma...i rather escape from the real world...avoid from making decisions...
since when i become so timid? i'm just dont want have any arguement in my life...i feel tire to see people argue with each other...
i keep think and think...try to fgure it out why people in this world will become like that...what kind of decision which can get a balance between people and people?...a balance which can avoid arguement and have a happy ending...tolerance this word appeared in my mind...in some circumstances tolerance need to be used...whoo...tire...=.=...growing older and older...naives cannot happen in my age now...now i know that ''mask'' is important to human...so that people dont know what your are planning...that's horrible...but i believe that some people still using their ''true appearance or attitude'' instead of putting a mask...
tiring...grandma admitted to hospital again...mum stay at hospital to take car of her...
in other words, i need to responsible to my brother and take care him...that's stress man...~~...
need to stop here...HOUSE WORK...=.=...realise that my mum is good in doing house work...U R THE BEST...^^
9:58 PM
Monday, March 23, 2009
o.o...now i realize that facebook has so many interesting games and IQ question...
just now i did one IQ question and my result was over 100...and i at the ''very smart'' level...=.=...really unbelievable right?? i think that test is just a fun test only...haha...
another test is about how many kids will i have in the future...my result is i will have 6 kids in the future...oh come on...=.=...thats too much for me...=.=...imagine after delivered out 6 kids..i think my body shape same like....=.=....that time mirrors will become my HATEST thing in the world...hahahaha....
now i only realize...our so called ''senior'' actually quite fussy...=.=..ermmm...i think i just stop here...haha...before telling how fassy are they...=.=...bye bye
just now i did one IQ question and my result was over 100...and i at the ''very smart'' level...=.=...really unbelievable right?? i think that test is just a fun test only...haha...
another test is about how many kids will i have in the future...my result is i will have 6 kids in the future...oh come on...=.=...thats too much for me...=.=...imagine after delivered out 6 kids..i think my body shape same like....=.=....that time mirrors will become my HATEST thing in the world...hahahaha....
now i only realize...our so called ''senior'' actually quite fussy...=.=..ermmm...i think i just stop here...haha...before telling how fassy are they...=.=...bye bye
4:10 AM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
♥ self center?? limitation??
hmmm...finally result come out...no failed...one A- for CIS which i didnt expect it to get A...
my LAN subjects...thank god...all pass...but i still feel sad...because...my economy still at the same status...B+ status...dont should cry or should celebrate it...=.=...but it still got some improvement in my economy...haizz...but i really dont have the mood to study hard to get good result..this final exam let me know something...
first...i am a not really smart person...no matter study how hard i still cannot achieve my own target...T.T...arrr...feel frustrated to my studies...feel want to stop my studies and have a long holiday...i think i reach my limitation...no energy to study hard anymore...haiz...maybe i should et go my self center...dont hoping too much in my target...because it never achieve...=.=...and enjoy my study life...hmmm...is time to do my homework...ECONOMY again...haiz...WHO CAN SAVE ME...T.T....
my LAN subjects...thank god...all pass...but i still feel sad...because...my economy still at the same status...B+ status...dont should cry or should celebrate it...=.=...but it still got some improvement in my economy...haizz...but i really dont have the mood to study hard to get good result..this final exam let me know something...
first...i am a not really smart person...no matter study how hard i still cannot achieve my own target...T.T...arrr...feel frustrated to my studies...feel want to stop my studies and have a long holiday...i think i reach my limitation...no energy to study hard anymore...haiz...maybe i should et go my self center...dont hoping too much in my target...because it never achieve...=.=...and enjoy my study life...hmmm...is time to do my homework...ECONOMY again...haiz...WHO CAN SAVE ME...T.T....
5:34 AM
Monday, March 16, 2009
♥ admit again???
hmmm...this 3 holidays didnt really rest much because my grandma admit to hospital again previous day...
she just discharge from hospital in few days then due to she was non stop vomitting...then she admit to the same hospital again...
i been to the hospital twice a day...quite exhausted...=.=zzz....
but my aunt is more exhausted compared with me because she stay one night in the wad with my grandma....
this few days really make me think a lot...
human live is so fragile...because of some tiny bacteria...
then we may become sick for few days and maybe few months...
if we failed to take care our health...then hospital will be our ''second house''...touch wood...=.=
when i went into the ICU wad...i feel shock...shock in the sense of i saw one old woman was full with pipe...oxygen pipe...blood pressure pipe...and etc...and she looks very suffer and no energy at all...sam to my grandma...she looks suffer too...i feel so useless because i cannot help much...hmmm...anyway...i just hope she recover soon...GAMBATEH...maybe tml need to rush to hospital after class...
ok...time to bed...=.=.zzzzz....
she just discharge from hospital in few days then due to she was non stop vomitting...then she admit to the same hospital again...
i been to the hospital twice a day...quite exhausted...=.=zzz....
but my aunt is more exhausted compared with me because she stay one night in the wad with my grandma....
this few days really make me think a lot...
human live is so fragile...because of some tiny bacteria...
then we may become sick for few days and maybe few months...
if we failed to take care our health...then hospital will be our ''second house''...touch wood...=.=
when i went into the ICU wad...i feel shock...shock in the sense of i saw one old woman was full with pipe...oxygen pipe...blood pressure pipe...and etc...and she looks very suffer and no energy at all...sam to my grandma...she looks suffer too...i feel so useless because i cannot help much...hmmm...anyway...i just hope she recover soon...GAMBATEH...maybe tml need to rush to hospital after class...
ok...time to bed...=.=.zzzzz....
7:48 AM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
♥ FAN ARRRRR...!!!!!!!!
=.=...begining already decided to photostate accounting book...but my aunt already help me order accounting book...=.=...arrrr....sorry esther...hope you not yet photostate oo...
haizz...sometime i really feel that why i so easy change my decisions...haizz...why i cannot insist with my decisions leh???...=.=....but now my aunt already order...no choice also...haizzzz....
now really doubt to my thinking...helping people izit a crime??? why adult so insist me to help others o?? haizzz....=.=...although maybe if i had help someone, that someone bad to me...and maybe selfish to me...i also no choice...because i help someone...this at least fulfill my own principle...helping someone which need my help...haizz...but this makes me wondering and feel sad...T.T...
today i FINALLY received a warning letter from st john...saying that if i still insist of contribute to st john...then i needed to resign from st john...and they give me about 14 days to reply their letter...but now my fren busy...so i dunno who shud i discuss with..i am afraid that if i really being sack out...then my fren she cannot afford to manage whole st john...but if i really being sack...i will still continue go back to kwang hua...guide them and help them out...
PEK KUAN ARRR...FASTER REPLY ME LEHHH...i still left 7 days...if i failed to reply...means i being sack oo...that time discuss also no choice....=.=...
haizz...sometime i really feel that why i so easy change my decisions...haizz...why i cannot insist with my decisions leh???...=.=....but now my aunt already order...no choice also...haizzzz....
now really doubt to my thinking...helping people izit a crime??? why adult so insist me to help others o?? haizzz....=.=...although maybe if i had help someone, that someone bad to me...and maybe selfish to me...i also no choice...because i help someone...this at least fulfill my own principle...helping someone which need my help...haizz...but this makes me wondering and feel sad...T.T...
today i FINALLY received a warning letter from st john...saying that if i still insist of contribute to st john...then i needed to resign from st john...and they give me about 14 days to reply their letter...but now my fren busy...so i dunno who shud i discuss with..i am afraid that if i really being sack out...then my fren she cannot afford to manage whole st john...but if i really being sack...i will still continue go back to kwang hua...guide them and help them out...
PEK KUAN ARRR...FASTER REPLY ME LEHHH...i still left 7 days...if i failed to reply...means i being sack oo...that time discuss also no choice....=.=...
6:40 AM
Thursday, March 5, 2009
♥ Golden rules???
''what we did to others, others may treat us back with the way we treat them''
this golden rules was taught by my malaysian studies lecturer...
although i believe that if we good to others, perhaps others would treat us good as well...
but in malaysia...or the world...if we use this rules as our principle...
will we trap by others because our kindness???
i think people will feel hat we are silly if we use this golden rules as our principle...
because..this world is full with evil-thinking people...
people used to say that people who older than us have the ''skill'' to know who is good and who is bad...but they also trap by people...because of their kindness...wanted to help others..but end up trapped by people....
if we didn't catch up such ''trend''...maybe we will become their victims...=.=...
hmmm...how should i act??? be kind or be evil??
i think...should be kind...there is no way for me to act so damn evil...=.=...
this golden rules was taught by my malaysian studies lecturer...
although i believe that if we good to others, perhaps others would treat us good as well...
but in malaysia...or the world...if we use this rules as our principle...
will we trap by others because our kindness???
i think people will feel hat we are silly if we use this golden rules as our principle...
because..this world is full with evil-thinking people...
people used to say that people who older than us have the ''skill'' to know who is good and who is bad...but they also trap by people...because of their kindness...wanted to help others..but end up trapped by people....
if we didn't catch up such ''trend''...maybe we will become their victims...=.=...
hmmm...how should i act??? be kind or be evil??
i think...should be kind...there is no way for me to act so damn evil...=.=...
3:40 AM
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
♥ LIFE = MONEY
first day of degree not that fun...
first subject is finance...
guess how much for the financial textbook...
RM 50??? nope....
RM 100??? NOPE....
hehehe....14th edition financial text book = US 500
which mean that after the exhange rate...is RM800 per book...
SHOCK OOO...O.O....
haha...BUT...lecturer said there is an optional...
haha...buy the 13th edition text book = RM80
hahaha...why so big difference???
and we need one financial calculator too...( is that neccessary?? if i not mistaken...i already have one worr...=.=..)
between...one financial calculator cost us RM 155....=.=...harlo?? use diamond as decoration keh??
hahaha...this don't have option lor...IT IS NECCESSARY TO BUY...=.=...
anyway...accounting book also need to buy..and strictly not allowed PHOTOSTATE...=.=...
come on...i thought now the world is having financial crisis...everybody is trying to purchase something that cheapest...
i think i also not affordable to buy this text book...
or i think i need to forgo to buy new hp and use the money to buy text books and calculator...
everything needs money...money really = life???
if people that live in poor family...how they survive in costy life???
hmmm...no one can answer me...i think i need to save more money...
first subject is finance...
guess how much for the financial textbook...
RM 50??? nope....
RM 100??? NOPE....
hehehe....14th edition financial text book = US 500
which mean that after the exhange rate...is RM800 per book...
SHOCK OOO...O.O....
haha...BUT...lecturer said there is an optional...
haha...buy the 13th edition text book = RM80
hahaha...why so big difference???
and we need one financial calculator too...( is that neccessary?? if i not mistaken...i already have one worr...=.=..)
between...one financial calculator cost us RM 155....=.=...harlo?? use diamond as decoration keh??
hahaha...this don't have option lor...IT IS NECCESSARY TO BUY...=.=...
anyway...accounting book also need to buy..and strictly not allowed PHOTOSTATE...=.=...
come on...i thought now the world is having financial crisis...everybody is trying to purchase something that cheapest...
i think i also not affordable to buy this text book...
or i think i need to forgo to buy new hp and use the money to buy text books and calculator...
everything needs money...money really = life???
if people that live in poor family...how they survive in costy life???
hmmm...no one can answer me...i think i need to save more money...
1:45 AM
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
♥ wow...
HARLO....
I AM BACK...
WAHAHAHA....
stop blogging for 3 months...
now i continue to blog again...haha
starting university life tomorrow...hahaha
hope it will be amazing...^^v...
I AM BACK...
WAHAHAHA....
stop blogging for 3 months...
now i continue to blog again...haha
starting university life tomorrow...hahaha
hope it will be amazing...^^v...
3:56 AM
